Lysa
TerKeurst
"Let us then approach God's throne of grace with confidence,
so
that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need."
Hebrews 4:16 (NIV)
"Does God ever get tired of my
issues?"
I've asked myself this question many times throughout
my
lifelong struggle with emotional eating.
Over the course of my journey, I've whined to God,
gotten
mad at God and often ignored God. And I've worried I was going to use up all
my
grace with God.
I felt He would be justified to say, "Enough! Go away.
I'm
tired of your issues. Figure it out for yourself!" That is, until I read
again
the "first story" of God's grace with fresh eyes.
We often think of God's grace beginning at the cross.
But
as I read through the Scripture from the point of view of someone struggling
with food issues, I saw a revelation of God's grace right from the start in
Genesis.
Adam and Eve disobeyed God by eating from the
forbidden
tree and ushered sin in to the world. God handed down the consequences of
their
actions, which included banishment from the Garden of Eden (Genesis 3). They
must have believed they had pushed past the boundaries of God's grace. After
all, He was sending them out of the garden.
Whenever I've read that story, I thought they had to
leave
paradise because God was punishing them. God was disappointed in them. God
was
giving them what they deserved. But I was wrong. Their relocation was not a
place of abandonment — it was a place of grace.
You see, there were two special trees in the Garden of
Eden. One was the tree of the knowledge of good and evil; this was the one
with
the forbidden fruit. The other was the tree of life. This was the one that
gave
Adam and Eve perpetual life — no diseases, no death, no sagging body parts.
(Okay I'm not sure about that last benefit, but I'm banking on this reality
in
heaven.)
Anyhow. When they ate from the tree of the knowledge
of
good and evil, sin entered in. Sin corrupted everything. And at that point,
it
was God's absolute love and most tender mercy that ushered Adam and Eve out
of
the garden. Not His anger or retaliation. They had to
leave.
If they'd been allowed to stay, they would have kept
eating from the tree of life and lived forever, wallowing in sin. Wallowing
in
all the brokenness sin brings with it: disease, fear, heartbreak, separation
from God.
An unending life of shame and sin would have been
their
fate.
God couldn't stand that for the people He loved. So,
His
love made them leave and allowed them to die. So that they could experience
the
resurrected life His Son would one day provide.
Brokenness to redemption.
God did not run out of grace at the dawn of humankind.
And
He will not run out of grace for you or for me. He does not want us to ever
stay
in a perpetual state of sin and despair. We were not created with a food
struggle or physical cravings because God is angry at us. It is because He
loves
us so much that He allows our struggle with food to be a physical indication
of
a spiritual situation.
God is asking for us to go to a new place as well —
and it
is a place of grace!
Receive grace and let it wash away all shame and guilt
from every unhealthy choice you've ever regretted and fretted over. Yes,
there
is work to do and progress to be made, but we will walk from here with a
clean
slate.
This grace and the unfathomable depth of God's love
settle
me. Breathes hope into my dread. And trust into my
doubts.
So when I stumble along on this journey, I know this
grace
is there for me, and I will come running back. And once again, it will give
me a
soft place to land.
Dear Lord, thank You for Your grace. Help me to rely on
You in
the midst of my struggle today. In Jesus' Name, Amen.
Have a Blessed Tuesday,
Richard
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