Lynn
Cowell
Lord, I'm not sure I can take one more
rejection.
No. No. No. Every email I
received
said the same thing, using different words. We don't publish that type
of
book. We don't publish writers we don't know. We won't publish
you.
Letting each rejection seep into
my
heart, many days I crawled into bed and cried. Why would God ask me to
do
something good, yet allow a process that made me feel so
bad?
But then I remembered Mary, who was much wiser than
I.
Her story is found in the Bible. Instead of building her confidence on
something
she could lose, or have taken away, she built her confidence on
God.
Picture this teenager. She's engaged to a great guy.
Wedding plans are in motion. Life is good.
Then suddenly, her happily-ever-after dreams are
interrupted by an angel announcing this surprise:
"Good morning! You're
beautiful
with God's beauty, Beautiful inside and out!
God be with you" (Luke 1:28, MSG).
God be with you" (Luke 1:28, MSG).
Flattered? Nope. She was scared! However, the angel
assures her, "You have nothing to fear. God has a
surprise for you. You will become pregnant and give birth to a son and call
his
name Jesus" (v. 29-33).
My reaction would have been,
What? Pregnant? I'm not married yet! There's no
way!
But when Mary received this news, we don't see fear
or
doubt. Her response isn't, "This will be the end of me! What will everyone
say
about me?"
Mary doesn't ditch her confidence. Instead, as we
find in
today's key verse, her reaction is grounded in faith: "I
am the Lord's servant. May everything you have said about me come true"
(Luke 1:38a).
Mary responded with confidence because Mary's
confidence
began with her relationship with God.
Not on something, like her reputation. That
was
outside her control.
Not on someone, like Joseph. For all she
knew,
he would leave her once he learned she was pregnant.
Not on some place, like her home. Mary
actually
left town to visit her cousin after she received this
news.
Did Mary understand everything God was doing?
Unlikely.
Or resent what He was doing? Doesn't appear so.
Would others judge her? No doubt they would, but Mary
did
not allow people's opinions to prevent her from embracing God's calling,
even if
she didn't completely understand it. The lack of details didn't impact her
confidence in His plans for her life, nor her trust in Him to take care of
her.
There have been times when I've based my confidence
on
others. As a teenager, I based it on a boyfriend's affection, a coach's
affirmation or my parent's approval. If one of them failed to give the "Atta
girl!" I craved, I saw myself as a failure.
As a mom, I've built it on my kids and their
performance.
When they made a mistake, my confidence was shaken. I've based my security
on my
career and the success I wanted. Success hasn't always come, although
rejection
often has.
Has there been a time when circumstances were less
than
perfect and your confidence was shaken?
I'm learning that unshakable confidence is not built
on
someone, something or someplace, but on our unshakable God. This confidence
is
built over time, before confidence-shaking circumstances come. In the
difficult
times, God has taught me He alone is my firm foundation for rebuilding
confidence. Only Him.
As we face inevitable uncertainties in life, in our
relationships, in our futures, let's start to rebuild our confidence on the
One
that can never be taken away: God. The only One who will never leave us or
forsake us.
Lord, it's easier to build my confidence on what I
can
see and what I know. Help me to build my confidence on You. In Jesus' Name,
Amen.
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